August 19, 2010
One year and one day ago my life was flipped upside down. I can’t, nor do I want to try, to explain all the feelings and thoughts that have gone and continue to go through my mind. I understand there are individuals less fortunate than myself, but nobody should have to go through what I’m going through. I miss everything in life that that I took for granted every single day. I wish so badly that I could do some things that I hear people complain about every day. It’s aggravating. Be appreciative of everything you have in your life. If you’re not happy, do something about it. Don’t settle – you’ll regret it. I do. Go out of your way to help somebody in need. Hold the door for someone who is obviously disabled. Don’t look at somebody and assume you know everything about their life and situation by the looks of them. Give everybody that benefit of the doubt and let them prove you wrong. What do you have to lose? You might end up having someone really surprise you. Life isn’t always what it seems and you can never be too sure what’s around the next corner, but isn’t that exciting? Unfortunately what was around my next corner, this time last year, wasn’t so great. I have a long way to go, that’s for sure, but I’ve also come a long way, which I easily and frequently forget. I guess just because I’m not walking, yet. I’m not afraid to admit I’m a pessimist, but lately something’s been telling me deep inside that I will be walking by this time next year, if not sooner. Call me crazy. Maybe August 19, 2011 will come and pass and I will still be in this chair. If that happens, then I guess we’ll just have to shoot for August 19, 2012. I’m not going to give up because I WILL walk again one day. I don’t care what the odds are, I’m going to beat them because I’ll be damned if I’m going to spend the rest of my life looking up at everybody and vice versa. I truly thank every single person that has helped me along the way this past year from the bottom of my heart. The stress and anxiety that I’ve placed on my family is enough to break any one down, but they’ve stood next to me the entire time, without wavering. My friends travel hundreds of miles to see me, frequently, which I cannot even begin to put into words. I just hope they know that if the roles were reversed, I’d be by their side in a heartbeat. To all of those people that I’ve never met, that have continuously helped my family and I but cooking dinners, donating money and time out of their busy lives – you are MY heroes. Our lives would be hell without you. I just have to say thank you again to my entire family. I love you all so much and appreciate what you sacrifice for me. And how could I forget, Leslie Davison . What an amazing woman. She does everything for me, without question and never asks for thing in return. She is a sweetheart, my angel and my love. Thank you for all that you do! You are truly irreplaceable. Everyone in my life is, so thanks again and here’s to another year! Please keep praying for me. I need all I can get!